The mind, The heart and the spaces between

So, Im pretty sure nobody reads this which is excellent becuase right now I am just going to type out some thoughts of mine. Lately I have been hanging out with a guy, and its as friends (I think) He is obviously still attached in some way to his ex, however it is obvious that he has some sort of interest in me.  I asked about this and he of course denied it being the dumb guy he is. Anyway, so we have been hanging out a good deal and tonight we studied together (yes we did really study, there has been no hanky-pankying). He is a nice guy, sweet, gets along great with the kiddies (plus) and I am really attracted to him. However it seems that my intrique and interest in him might be quickly dissolving. 

Tonight we hung out and studied, and I had none of the feelings I use to when I was with him. No butterflies, no intrique, no urge to kiss him, nothing just a blank convass. which is good to an extent yet, I hate when I lose interest so quickly. I dont know if I really have lost interest, or if it just an introverted appethetic mood, but I really like him physically, intellectually, and personality wise, however there is just something a miss and its bothering me right now. I hate being so intune to emotions becuase if I was not I could pass this off so easily and yet I feel the need to annylize such meanial things in my life. 

However, the moral of this blog is that I really want somene to interest me and keep up with me intellectually as well as hold my hand and kiss me romantically. I want someone attractive to some degree, but who also has an amazing personality and likes me for me, not someone I can never be. 

Lots of love, 

D