I think too much, or maybe not enough.

so lately I have been thinking a lot about home and other things. I know I am meant to be in Connecticut, and I know that God wants me here, however, I do not know why. It is really hard to sit here and trust Him when I don't know why I am here. It is so utterly human of me to be thinking that, but I know that there is a reason and that he would NEVER abandon me, but right now I am feeling slightly abandoned, and yet ridiculously optimistic.

The reason I am ridiculously optimistic is that I am finally realizing that even if I never meet any new people here, I have the most amazing friends back home. I have really been blessed with the most wonderful friends back home, not many people have had the opportunity to grow up and meet so many wonderful people especially males. I would really like to meet some people, but I don't know if that is why God put me here. I think he might have given me the chance to really learn independence and become more cultured as well as getting out of my comfort zone.

I am also starting to believe that possibly I am sent here to realize how strong of a person I really am as well as what I meant to do with the rest of my life. I have been thrown into a whole new world, and yet I am flourishing, and running with it. I already see changes in myself that I would never have thought would happen in just a month, as well as an attachment with the kids, that is just ridiculous. I know that I am meant to be here, and I know that I will always have a life back home to return to and sweet friends that will always love me, but for now I need to stay here and see what I can accomplish on my own for a while. Yes, I did just speak in circles, but those are the thoughts I have.

love ya's,
Dede

Connecticut so far.

So, I have been in Connecticut for almost a month, and its been interesting. The family is super sweet, and I fell in love with the kidddies at once (and yes, I meant the three "d's" so each one gets a "d" and will not feel left out when they can read) Anyway, pretty much everything here is different, including, but not limited to the wally world. Yes, the wally worlds close here!! they actually lock their doors at ten! I was so out raged, I can deal with different food, clothing, music, cars, but not wally world too!

Lets, see things that would make you guys giggle, my family does not eat red meat. well the mom doesn't so the dad just rolls with it, that means I have not had a steak in over a month, I have however had buffalo burgers and they were amazingly unique and delicious. The pizza is also different, it is sweeter, but there is a local place that makes the best bread sticks ever!! The middle Kid and I are pretty much addicted, she so rocks my world, and has the same love of food, its GREAT!

I am actually about to go get bread sticks that I promised the little lady, so I will write again later, or maybe I will just keep this open and add on...sounds good.

I am really bad at this whole blogging thing, so hopefully it will get better as I go, if not I am sorry to everyone that reads this :)

so the major differences with life here vs Nebraska
1.) no red meat
2.) if you go out for steak no one knows what medium rare is
3.) the steak is not fresh
4.)Wally world is not open 24/7
5.) wally world is tiny and sucks
6.) I am a hour away from friend(s)
7.) Culture here rocks my face off (sorry NE)
8.) The family's grill is camping size
9.) we grill out veggies and fruits, but not always meat
10.) No charcoal is used when grilling
11.) The boating/fishing store here is for yatchs
12.) the boating/fishing apparel is kakki and polos
13.) Nebraska is seen as redneck, but Norwalk is so much worse
14.) My social life sucks here
15.) I don't have my boy(s), mary, and cholles here :(, but I do have my becky!

so I am sure there will be more to come :)

I love you all very very mucho,
D-squared