Another incessant running of the mind to decern the heart

It seems that yet again I fail at posting. It has been almost a montha again and a lot has happened, yet nothing at all. It is funny how life does that.  At the moment, I am attempting to figure out what my latest hunch is. It seems that a peacock is important this time, but I do now know what it means. 

I feel as if it could mean that I need to stop seeing if the newest boy is online or thinking about why he has not emailed me yet, instead I need to take a step back and let the courtship to happen. Which will be a true test of myself, but will also make me stronger for the better which is another respresentation of the peacock.  I dont know what it really means, however we will see what happens. 

Anyway...busy weekend!! Shopping in the city tomorrow and making a movie :) Then Lunch with noodle and a friend of his. Should be good times for all!! 

Ill try to not suck. 

love ya, 

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