so lately I have been thinking a lot about home and other things. I know I am meant to be in Connecticut, and I know that God wants me here, however, I do not know why. It is really hard to sit here and trust Him when I don't know why I am here. It is so utterly human of me to be thinking that, but I know that there is a reason and that he would NEVER abandon me, but right now I am feeling slightly abandoned, and yet ridiculously optimistic.
The reason I am ridiculously optimistic is that I am finally realizing that even if I never meet any new people here, I have the most amazing friends back home. I have really been blessed with the most wonderful friends back home, not many people have had the opportunity to grow up and meet so many wonderful people especially males. I would really like to meet some people, but I don't know if that is why God put me here. I think he might have given me the chance to really learn independence and become more cultured as well as getting out of my comfort zone.
I am also starting to believe that possibly I am sent here to realize how strong of a person I really am as well as what I meant to do with the rest of my life. I have been thrown into a whole new world, and yet I am flourishing, and running with it. I already see changes in myself that I would never have thought would happen in just a month, as well as an attachment with the kids, that is just ridiculous. I know that I am meant to be here, and I know that I will always have a life back home to return to and sweet friends that will always love me, but for now I need to stay here and see what I can accomplish on my own for a while. Yes, I did just speak in circles, but those are the thoughts I have.
love ya's,
Dede
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